this all started last week at Spider House over a $7 pitcher of Lone Star with a friend i hadn't seen in weeks...
i think we're given things in life. some more than others. i, for one, have been given amazing gifts:
1. a family that loves me unconditionally and supports me financially, emotionally, physically, spiritually... basically in every way possible.
2. friendships. unbelievable friendships. friendships that will never end. the kind that inspire, antagonize, and nurture all in one motion.
3. life's necessities. with no worry about them ever going away. shelter, food, water.
4. talents. things i can do that i'm not sure why i can do. music. writing.
5. a million other things that just make me absolutely rich in comparison to 95% of the world.
but thats not my life. i am not my gifts. i am not what was given to me. my being doesn't exist by those alone. life CANNOT be just about getting things and then being thankful for them while we squander them. because mark my words, they will not always be there:
my family and friends will die.
our earth will die, and along with it, all the things that sustain life.
my talents will die with my age: i will get arthritis and my mind will go.
all my stuff will go quicker than it came.
LIFE IS NOT COMPLETED IN OUR GIFTS.
they are gifts. and from God no doubt, but there's more. living isn't just sitting and receiving. there has to be an element of movement. living is an action word, and so life is.
so what am i doing? how am i reacting to the constant grace that keeps me in a state of ability to do just that?
not too much. i could be better. i could live better. but the struggle for me is: "well if there's grace, and God has ordained it all to happen, why bother?" which worries me. what if, that's not true? what if my actions actually dictate what will happen in the future, whether mine, or worse, others'?
but i don't think it's as much about Him and "the effect we have on the universe" as we think.
which sounds selfish, but don't stop reading because i think i can dumb it down to make a little bit of confusing sense:
God gives us gifts.
We recognize that.
We then live like a child who got the Sega for Christmas in 1990, and use it all the time.
In doing that we're acting. We're using the gift, which is why it was given... to be used.
In our action we find fulfillment. We're pleased and feel complete.
In our completion He is pleased. Because He loves us.
He made us to love us.
So in our completion we are pleasing Him, AKA worshipping him.
use your Sega's friends. don't just like them and talk about them and write books about them. USE THEM. live your life. work at it. that's where the completion is that you're all looking for.
that being said:
i think i'm getting old because 9 years ago after my first 8 o'clock college class, i never would have thought that work was something vitally important to my souls well being.